Amber Arcades - European Heartbreak (2018) [Hi-Res]

It's about the concepts and stories we invent to understand our experienced reality and feel like we matter somehow, and about the fluid and sometimes contradictory nature of these stories. Like the concept of romantic love, for example. Is this actually a thing? Sometimes it seems so tangible it becomes my whole world, other times I'm convinced it's just a scam I keep falling for. Both of these sentiments feel equally true at different times. The same with politics and identity. When I'm in the Netherlands I don't really pay much attention to being "Dutch" or "European", and I think politicians who focus on a shared Dutch culture are lame at best and dangerous at worst. Then when I'm in the US being Dutch all of a sudden seems to be a huge part of my identity. I guess the point is, whatever idea I have about myself or about love, politics, morality, and anything at all, is so fluid and relative that I'm finding it hard to say that I trust any of my own views, ideas or perceptions anymore. Which sucks, because I really want to find meaning to this life, and it's hard to find that when you don't trust any of your own experiences. For example, happiness: I have this Calvinistic idea that in order to achieve happiness, I have to struggle, I have to earn it by overcoming challenges, developing myself, etc. But the end-result will just be the same as if I did nothing: you die and then nothing you've done or achieved matters anymore. So does a human life move upwards towards a certain goal, or is it just a chain of random events? And what about our collective history, does it move towards a goal, is there progress, or is it just a random collection of events? I think most people like to think there is progress, both in their personal life as well as in the world at large, that we are working towards being a better more developed person and also towards collectively building a better world. At the same time, we tend to romanticize the past and think everything was better "back in the days". Something I've always wondered is whether these concepts and experiences can be translated from the individual to the masses, and from the psychological to the physical.